This is a very difficult post to write, and I had hoped to be making a completely different kind of announcement at this point. I certainly never expected to be saying this, but after working seven years in the same library system, working my way up, investing lots of my own time and money into professional development, earning my MLIS, and trying to build a career, I am suddenly unemployed due to Covid-19 layoffs, and I am devastated.
The last four months have been extremely difficult due to the library closure, not being able to have a graduation ceremony, missing my coworkers and patrons, not being able to do the programs I'd planned, and no prospects for a full-time professional position. And while I was concerned about not being able to find a professional position right away now that I have my nice shiny new MLIS, I never thought I would lose my current paraprofessional position. I thought maybe furloughed for a while, but not to be completely let go, just like that. And it wasn't just me, but at least 100 other part-timers were let go as well, all in one fell, unexpected, swoop.
While I do understand the necessity of reducing staff due to still being closed,and all the restrictions that will be in place when
The way we all learned we were being let go showed a complete lack of compassion and respect. There was no warning, and we never saw it coming. Rather than letting the supervisors or managers who actually work with us and know us tell us individually, it was sent out in a mass generic e-mail that at first appeared to be just a normal update, starting out talking about starting curbside service and opening one branch, then it was basically, "and oh, by the way, all you part-time people are now unemployed", and sent out at the end of the day of course, so no one can respond. That's just cold and cowardly. To further rub salt in the wound, we were also told none of us would be called back, but we would have to reapply down the road and start all over, competing for a position and starting at base pay.
I am absolutely devastated and incredibly hurt. Hurt by the way it was handled and devastated by the loss of a job I loved and the career I thought I was building. Though I liked every position I've had in the system and worked with so many great people and learned so much in each one, my most recent position was the one I really and truly loved. I worked with great people, I got to do a wide variety of programs, I loved our patrons and the diverse community. I enjoyed being at work and looked forward to going to work every day. I am just in tears thinking about all of the patrons that I had built relationships with that I'm not going to see again, some of the coworkers I'll probably never see again, some that I'll probably lose touch with even though we say we won't, it's just not the same when you aren't working together anymore. I know the pandemic is ultimately to blame for the situation, but the director and board bear the blame for how it was handled.
So if you're a director or board member reading this, your take-away should be to never, ever forget your decisions have major impact on people's lives. Never forget your employees are human beings, and remember to treat them with compassion and grace, especially when difficult decisions have to be made. Even though it would be easier on you to just send out an e-mail; you need to share that emotional burden and do it in a more personal way. Take time to look at all those names of people whose worlds you are about to turn upside down. Think about who they are, what they've done for the library. And if you can't picture them or answer that question, you need to do some serious soul-searching about what kind of director you want to be. If you don't know the employee, then let the manager or supervisor who does deliver the news, someone who sees a human being, not a disposable cog, and can be truly empathetic and compassionate.
To my former director and board, you've done some really great things with the library and for the community, and you handled the initial crisis extremely well. However, you really handled this very poorly. I hope the library can recover from the loss of so many great, knowledgeable and experienced people; I hope my career can survive this major setback. I can almost guarantee that when you see my name you have no idea who I am or the things I've done for the library and community. Even if you have a vague idea, I'm sure you don't really know me. Here are some things I want you to know about me before you show me the door:
I am one of the most dependable, dedicated part-time workers you had. I loved my job, and I am very passionate about public libraries and youth services. I just finished my MLIS, which is actually my second masters degree. My first was in microbiology, and my first career was in research. I did work for Dr. Tony Fauci in fact. I grew up on a farm after being a navy brat. I also worked for the navy as a civilian researcher. I was an award-winning professional cake decorator. I once coached a state-champion track team. I just had a paper about my MLIS research project accepted for publication in a scholarly journal. Losing my job is going to mean major upheaval for my family. I love animals and nature. I never outgrew my fascination with dinosaurs. I have presented close to 2000 storytimes in the last 5 years. I serve on the board of my local public library, and though we also had to make the difficult decision to lay-off part-time employees, we gave them 30 days notice and every one of them got a personal phone call (and they will be called back at their same pay, in order of seniority). I will be a great children's librarian for some other library. I am a living, breathing, human being with skills, hopes, dreams, responsibilities, and feelings.
To my former supervisors and managers, you guys were all awesome to work for, and I learned so much from each and every one of you, and I am so glad I had the opportunity to work with you all. My co-workers are all amazing people, and I will miss you all so much. The library is a great library because of all of you! And to my library kiddos and families, I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face, looking at all the little treasures you've given me over the years, thinking of how I will not get to see your smiling faces, receive your pretend cakes and cups of tea, see the look of wonder on your faces when we do cool experiments, hear you laugh when I read a silly story, or help you find just the right book again. And worst of all, I didn't even get to say good-bye.
My treasures, clockwise from the top left:
- A card from a boy whose family were regulars saying he missed me because they had come during shifts I wasn't working the last few times.
- A good-bye card from one of my favorite daycares when I left my outreach position.
- Scribbled notes from a little boy his mother translated to say "I love the library" and "I love the librarian", which inspired the next one:
- "Love letters" to the library for library lovers month.
- A multi-page Thanksgiving card from "8 little turkeys" at one of the daycares I visited.
- A penny from a little girl at another daycare who insisted she wanted to give me a tip for doing storytime with them.
- Finally, the most heartbreaking. A bracelet from a little boy at a daycare for Mother's Day. I asked him if he didn't need to give that to his mom, and he said "nah, I have another one". I found out a couple of months later than he had been in foster care and mom wasn't really in the picture (he was later adopted by his foster family). I will treasure that bracelet for ever!!
To all the other library people who have also been left unemployed, the other recent grads facing a near hopeless job market, I see you and I feel your pain.
To the year 2020, enough already!
And to the corona virus, screw you! Just. Screw. You.
We have never met but after reading your post my heart is broken for you. I am so sorry that you have been laid off and in the manner that you were. They are losing an invaluable wonderful librarian, and I hope that you are able to find a job in this field once the world rights itself. I am a preschool teacher and so enjoy your posts. Thank you for sharing them and for inspiring me to a better educator.ReplyDelete
Thank you so much for taking the time to leave an encouraging comment. Just hearing from several people that they follow my blog has been a nice (and greatly needed!) ego boost; so often I feel like I'm just shouting in the void because I rarely get comments or feedback from readers. I know there are people who have it much worse than me, because thankfully my spouse has a decent paying, fairly secure job, but it was such a personal and professional loss to me, and so callously done.Delete
Best of luck to you, and hope we all survive this mess and can get back to some semblance of normal by next year!
I'm so incredibly sorry. That is a horrible way to do what shouldn't be done anyway, and no one should have to go through that, much less a talented, dedicated and highly qualified person like you. I love your blog and check it often, which is why I can say all that! Take care, and let me know if you want some job listings from Canada. My colleagues from DCPL who have followed me north of the border have never regretted it!ReplyDelete
Thank you so much for the kind comments! I was actually hoping to move somewhere with milder winters, so I'm not sure Canada is for me, LOL! If I change my mind, I will definitely let you know. I'm afraid the pandemic is going to continue to wreak havoc on everything, including the job market, and I don't think things will ever go back to the way they used to be. :( It makes me incredibly sad that public libraries have come so far in becoming welcoming community spaces, only to be set back 100 years in just a couple of months.Delete
That's what everyone says, but there's always southern BC (which is Bay-Area- warm), and job protections are way better here (which is the only reason mentioned it).Delete